This morning, with the scent of rain still just a promise in the air, my ears picked up a sound. In a house where silence is a rare commodity, this should not come as a surprise. But this was not a sound which I could identify. The soundtrack of our daily life has become so familiar to me that I can recognise the creaks and groans of individual floorboards, the sighs of the tin roof in different patches. But this was not a sound I could own. "What was that?" I asked my boys. The oldest of the two, with a spread of his expressive hands answered without hesitating: "It is the music of life". Somehow, the origin of the sound no longer seemed important or threatening. In his characteristically elaborate manner, our son captivated the moment and changed it into something grand and light.
I have always preferred the score of my own life to be "a capriccio" (A free and capricious approach to tempo). In other words: I set the tempo, determine the pace. Most often leaning towards the more "adagietto" (slow and gentle) movements. Especially since "half a century" now equates to the length of my own existence... Our two lively children have somewhat changed this tempo to an "accelerando", which still leaves me breathless at times. But whatever the tempo or key, the execution of our symphony is no longer "ad libitum" (the speed and manner left to the performer).
Music has been a part of my life for as long as I remember. My mother had a beautiful alto voice. She could pick up the harmony to a song quite effortlessly, and the three woman of our household often sang as we washed up after supper. Mamma with her hands in the soap-suds, while my sister and I dried and packed away with light hearts. My two brothers played the trumpet and french horn respectively, and my father had a cherished collection of vinyl records in a cupboard in the sitting room. These were brought out on Saturday evenings or Sunday nights and tenderly placed on the record player with work-worn hands. We attended concerts in the city hall, sinking into deep, musty smelling seats. Rapt and absorbed by the music washing over us, drawn together in the darkness. Televised recordings of symphony orchestras, performing in awe-inspiring cathedrals, opera, chamber music. An impressionable young girl was transported to an era of both grandeur and simplicity. There was a squeaky electric organ next to the front door of our home. I was to receive music lessons from a diminutive, rodent-faced lady. It went awry. I disliked the restrictions and discipline, the humdrum of scales and the unimaginative childish "tunes" I was forced to learn. "My Grandfather's Clock" still evokes images of a wooden ruler rapping away a four count beat on that poor instrument. I was bored and the ruler was dismissed. But it did not diminish my enchantment. It simply meant that I did not need to excel, sit exams or win prizes. I could just be an open-mouthed audience of one, not yet aware of my part in the grandest symphony of all time.
Over the years, I have often reached for a favourite recording to lift me from a sombre mood. To ease the burden of sorrow, or simply to fill the empty silence. To celebrate the beginning of a new day, or to accompany an urge to twirl and shimmy until beads of sweat trickled down my back. Music was an indulgence, an undemanding friend. Like a much loved book or film, waiting to be called on when the moment called for it. It served unassumingly to bring friends together, to play in the pit while my life took center stage. As a secondary school pupil, I often took the bus into "town" after school. Two streets below Church square - at the back of a drafty arcade, was a - crammed to the ceiling, poster pasted, glass fronted, musty record shop with a grand name. Universitas. For a while, it was like an unexplored, miniature universe to me. You had to walk through Uniewinkels (now John Orrs I think) to reach it. To enter it was to slip into the reverence of a music library. I'd tiptoe on scuffed Bata toughees past other customers, each encased in their own sound bubble. Large unwieldy headphones clasped to their ears. Then I'd sidle up to the counter with my clumsy leather schoolbag on my back, and ask if I could listen to a particular record. It was a time of escaping, discovering and being found in the undemanding embrace of world music. I became a mental traveller, a traverser of borders, without so much as moving a limb.
Friendships were often formed and cultivated on the basis of whether the person in question liked the same music as I did. Naively, I believed that these "connections" had to be authentic, sincere. The biggest shock came when a friend of a friend became "born again"; and on the next day, dumped his whole music collection in the dustbin. We had always been "good", church-going folk, but no one had ever told me that we were only allowed to listen to sacred or worship music, and that the rest would all lead to sin and waywardness. At first I scorned the whole notion of having to give up anything in order to be a "good" Christian. But this is an entirely different subject, which I'd rather not venture into at this point. But having said that, in my own experience, when your focus as a Christian is on Christ, the "things" that no longer belong, leave you.
There have since been a few unfortunate recordings burnt, some given away and some simply "outgrown". Some of these convictions grew from feelings of guilt. Some were sincere and the "cleansing" process has made way for more freeing discoveries. The discovery that all around me there is a continuous symphony of worship, which never ceases, regardless of what I like to (or feel that I should) listen to. There is an incident recalled in the bible, where Jesus was coming down the Mount of Olives and the whole multitude of his disciples began to rejoice and praise God with their voices lifted high. The Pharisees told Jesus to rebuke them. And he answered with these amazing words: "I tell you, if these (his followers) were silent, the very stones would cry out!" In Isaiah there is this beautiful promise: "For you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills before you shall break forth into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands." The Psalmist writes: "Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord from the heavens; praise him in the heights! Praise him, all his angels; praise him, all his hosts! Praise him, sun and moon, praise him, all you shining stars! Praise him, you highest heavens, and you waters above the heavens!" Can we then assume that we alone, have been given the ability/gift to worship our Creator, or that He demands a specific genre of music to bring glory to his name?
Music has emotional weight. We may "feel" overwhelmed by a particular hymn or song of worship, and mistake it for a sure connection with the heart of God. But then Maria Callas sings "Nessun Dorma" and the same feeling sweeps over me... I am becoming convinced that we do not sing to worship God. We worship God and therefore we sing (or dance or play music). Everything in this vast universe does. Galaxies of stars and planets, the creatures of the sea, all of creation praises Him. Each bloom that opens with tender beauty or extravagant depth of colour does so with the same purpose. To join in the unimaginable symphony, in honour of our God. I may just be the piccolo or the triangle, but oh boy, when it comes to my part, I want to do it with all of me! Whether it is with song or dance or simply in silent awe of the God that gave the gift or genius of music to man.
Quite recently we attended a morning soiree in a friend's house. The musician was also a teacher and unashamed lover of music, across a broad spectrum of genres and styles. He was not a master of any of the instruments he played, but he played and sang with so much heart and understanding, that it truly did not matter. It was intimate and interactive, and we all walked away from it feeling uplifted and richer. I remember him saying that what he particularly loved about African music, is that it was not necessarily the perfection of the execution, but the participation that mattered among the tribes of our beautiful land.
I think we can take a "note" from that approach when we "make a joyful noise unto the Lord". So take up your lyre, your harp, your bugle or your "blik kitaar". (Guitar made out of tin). But join in. Ad libitum. Bravura (boldly) or gentile (gently). Facile (without fuss) or fuocusso (passionately). However, whenever. But do not miss the cabaletta - the concluding, rapid, audience-rousing part of the aria, which with a bold trumpet call; will announce the arrival of the Bridegroom.
May we each be a "singing" bride.